broadcasting

Walk home turned into a conversation about relationships.

It’s an intriguing thing to me since I don’t typically go out in the world looking for them, and the ones I’ve had typically spawned from long friendships and connections.

The first one hit like - boom. It was senior year, she was a great friend, and the week it happened was this long series of awkward encounters after an interesting prom experience with a group. She was sweet it actually initiated a number of things for me, including the first long term job I had, exposure to a family of liberals.

The second one was interesting. As with the first, it was a friend, but I actually initiated it. In truth, we were quite different and it didn’t work out.

For the third one I’ll make use of this GIF of Kevin. (hey Kevin!)

So, as with the other two it stemmed from a long term friendship, and it was mutual as it turns out. She apparently was debating on asking, I was debating on asking, both of us were making some third party suffer through our debating. In terms of how it worked out, it was this odd meshing of certain similarities and certain drastically different views. She pulled out parts of me that never saw daylight and I appreciated it. I realize that I have demons that I have to deal with, still, but it was rather fun to actually take part in an anime convention, cosplay, have dyed hair, do some scandalous things, and first of all have a great friend. 

What happens next? For now, just the regular day to day.

I still have those skeletons in my closet, though the more I’ve had pulled out the more I’m aware of them. Whether I’ve done anything to shatter them is anyone’s guess.

There’s also the point that I’m, as I long have been, not interested in dating. Not that I wouldn’t mind it, but I’m not interested in the pursuit, at least, not yet. I wouldn’t mind building out more friendships overall, so there’s that.

Back to homework.

Finally noticing that my weekends have turned into my time to recharge. Wish I got more done with my time, but realize that I really have needed the time to just reset and let my mind rest.

On the other side, queue is empty tomorrow so some new round of things will come later this week probably.

Over time I have times when I worry that I become too introverted and private.

Then again, I do tend to enjoy time alone.

So, are we in a new cold war…

…against [unknown] and we just have continual small fights everywhere?

Almost rid of all my unused technology.

Two are being sent off to see if I can get any money for them, then one I can recycle. Finally I can get rid of some stuff I have laying around.

Part of me thinks I’ll bundle up and go for a bike ride.

The other thinks it’s too cold.

The other other part of me reminds myself that this is a resolution and it keeps my mind a little more at least if I go for one a week.

So, it’ll be a bike ride for some short amount of time, then I’ll work on portfolio work today and get laundry done. So there, plan!

please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

(Source: askpillow, via thewelldressedgouf)

Unwritten Resolution: Buy helmet

I have a complex about things on my head, but it’s actually law in Seattle for helmets on a bicycle, so I have to force myself to buy one today and be happy with it.

Update: Achieved, and I actually like it. We’ll see how an hour+ with it on my head goes in a day or two.

graham-bunny:

thewelldressedgouf:

zeonfunnelcake:

renainnocenti:

chibi self maker

 me

 Rena 
Big difference between us, yes? 

Teh Lorelei!

What?  You wanted me to be serious with this?  Well, okay…

Eh…
 

Or my alternative days.

(Source: ruevian)

I’m beginning to think that maybe my new neighbor plays music…

…or love base bass.

Either way, I may be ready to go get them if this continues for a long time.

Edit: I think this may be the new R.A. *sigh*